Sometimes I just feel like crying.


I don't like acting strong.


Maybe I'm just not THAT good at adapting a new environment, I feel lost and empty inside. Like seriously, I really miss those familiar faces. I'm just too used of seeing the people I loved almost everyday while in school.


And now..


.______.


I'm still stuck at the second stage of culture shock.


Like really.


But then, it feels very contradict. I love the people around here, yet, it doesn't cheer me up, its like a knot in my heart that I can't seem to untie it.


This is when, I learned to know myself more.


I learned alot about my true personality.


Eg. how would I react facing different situation of life/ people etc.


But you know.. I'm a fighter!


I know I'll get true them, like I always did. I just need more time compare to others.


Because, I'm me and this is the way I am. :)


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Mr Kelvin Liew said today, a Buddhist is a person who follows the teaching of Buddhism, and declare Lord Buddha as their own personal teacher.


And not because you pray to the statue of Lord Buddha/ your parents are Buddhist so you are as well.


It's a wrong concept.


And I wish someday,


I'll learn deeper from the teaching of Buddha.


And it'll leads a little of nirwana. :)


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off to dinner. I gotta eat b4 its too late my dear.


:)


Baby Elynn here.

The one who likes to "teh" people alot... xD