Friday, August 6, 2010
I wanna immerse myself into consciousness. Sometimes I feel like I'm doing something which is of the opposition of what I think, which makes me feels useless sometimes. I need to learn not to be so emotional, I'm a grown up okayyy?! What on earth am I doing? @.@
Stop being so sensitive Elynn! Live your heart out! :D Thank goodness I hv people who always make me laugh.. xD Veronica and Haoyu. Thanks la! Love you guys to the max~ What kinda of weird fate brought us together... I'm still wondering.. haha sometimes it just feels so funny. Well, anyway, I appreciate you guys a lot >.< :DD Lalala.. Be positive be positive be positive. Okayy~ I'm great right now.. ^.^ I had lotsa fun this week. Especially during the malam beradab held for fizikal and account students, it certainly added lotsa entertainment to the same old dull weekly routine. Get to know lots of ppl better. At least we've talked.. haha since orientation week, this was the first time we talked leh.. geng leh~ xD Then I performed my dance again during the first day of the malam beradab again. It went smoothly except for the potong-steam response from the audience >.< *flicks hair* I'm still very professional la.. acted high all way through during the dance. HAHA. Other than this malam beradab thingy, everything seemed the same. Felt sleepy every single day. The sleepy alarm always sirens every morning after the perhimpunan (when class is eventually gonna start).. LOL! I'm still not use to the boring lecturers here, I miss KC's teacher, they teach beyond what we're learning for examinations. And of cuz a lot more deeper. Here, knowledge isn't even knowledge. I don't even know where and how those things are derived from. Tried to ask the lecturers but they said "bcuz like that like that lor", c'mon, even the best teacher thinks that we cannot accept too detailed info, afraid that we might get confused. Halo? We're 18 right now, isn't it a normal thing of ur to start to accepting more things, as our brains are developed to a more mature state?! I dunno.. that's why, to me, I feel like i'm studying blindly. I can't feel the satisfaction... I miss my teachers a.k.a our walking encyclopedia. >.<>Me falling asleep in the first row (with a new teacher somemore)... Andrew, Sotong, Fatin waking me up.. Refused to wake up. After 10 mins, I'm awake. Then i told andrew they all: "我很累啦,很想睡。。" "酱就睡咯" Me: "我睡你们又叫我醒?!" =="""""" Maybe I didn't drink my chicken essence gua.. Ngek ngek... Other than that nothing liao gua... I survived on merely breads/cereals/honey/soy milk/ apples. I swear to myself I'll never touch the kafe's nasi goreng alr! It made me bloated.. nonono.. and pimples are all over my face >.< One year here doesn't mean I have to ruin my figure right?! Of course I need more varieties, I can't be eating the same old thingy over and over! Issh I need suggestions! :) No.. not biscuits.. biscuits are unhealthy uhmm?? :))) On the other hand, PSPM is on the way right now... 1 more month, than this big big examination is gonna fill my brain thoroughly.. Honestly, I don't have that kinda Oummphh to study! But I'm just trying to be consistent, finish up tutorials, revise during quizes, don't fall asleep during lessons will be sufficient I guess. Well, I'm trying to be optimistic here. Haha. xD Other than that, there's two performance coming my way. 1st, its for my ko-k competition, 2nd, moral project (marks will be given based on performance) For my co-curicullum, I'm a penyajak for wakil cina. We're doing some kind of pra-merdeka thigny, where leaders of different races fight for independance and priorities in this country... Well the story goes on.. For my moral, uh umm! I'm gonna be Prince Charming! xDD Two girls.. uhmm no three, will be fighting for me! To gain my attention.. and eventually I'll fall in love to just one. LOL! modern cinderella story... hahaha Okok. That's all for today.. Night guys. ;) |
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Friday, June 4, 2010
Sometimes I just feel like crying.
I don't like acting strong. Maybe I'm just not THAT good at adapting a new environment, I feel lost and empty inside. Like seriously, I really miss those familiar faces. I'm just too used of seeing the people I loved almost everyday while in school. And now.. .______. I'm still stuck at the second stage of culture shock. Like really. But then, it feels very contradict. I love the people around here, yet, it doesn't cheer me up, its like a knot in my heart that I can't seem to untie it. This is when, I learned to know myself more. I learned alot about my true personality. Eg. how would I react facing different situation of life/ people etc. But you know.. I'm a fighter! I know I'll get true them, like I always did. I just need more time compare to others. Because, I'm me and this is the way I am. :) ************* Mr Kelvin Liew said today, a Buddhist is a person who follows the teaching of Buddhism, and declare Lord Buddha as their own personal teacher. And not because you pray to the statue of Lord Buddha/ your parents are Buddhist so you are as well. It's a wrong concept. And I wish someday, I'll learn deeper from the teaching of Buddha. And it'll leads a little of nirwana. :) *************** off to dinner. I gotta eat b4 its too late my dear. :) Baby Elynn here. The one who likes to "teh" people alot... xD |
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